I Am A Loser

Sometimes I lose. Its hard to take being on the losing end of life. I'm not at all a competitive person and usually strive for those win/win situations in life. I think it's because I love the process of things so much more than the achievement of something (at least that's what I tell myself). I like the doing but I'll admit I hate when the doing doesn't get the results I want. Graceful in defeat, maybe on the outside, but there have been plenty of moments of true seething on the inside. I get resentful because I put so much into the "process" that when it doesn't yield results I get mad. I lose. Well, there goes another little bit of denial. Sigh. Another moment of humanity.