When I was growing up I didn't feel much like a kid. There were worries inside. Many of them I couldn't verbalize just a free floating anxiety about everything. Carefree wasn't my experience. It's taken a long time to get to be learn how to be a real kid. I did learn how to be kind and I took thinking of others to the extreme. I worried what people would think and I did what I was told. I didn't rebel or talk back but went deep inside and buried a lot of what I feel. Probably not unusal but today, as an adult, I wish I had some more experiences that were just fun and crazy. Maybe I'll have them now.